thank you eh? part d's

Okay, Affirmation was "great".

No, overall the ceremony, I would rate it a 4. Yes. AND NO. it wasn't because of the special guests of the campus superstar. Some campus superstar came to the ceremony due to the fact that YuYang was actually a cadet of NCC. So, Yuyang was there and with 2 girls. I don't know them, but I presume they're from Campus Superstar too. Oh, I don't watch Campus superstar. that's why I presume.

The repelling/abseilling and-

Okay, let's put it this way. The dropping of people from a tower was cool and the fireworks too. The speeches were long and don't you even expect Lynette to hear them. I practically slept through the speeches with my eyes open. Eh, you can't blame me. I had tuition in the morning at Ms Huang's house which is at Geylang. Then I straight away travel back to school to check on the Part A's attire and then zoomed off with them to Indoor Stadium.

You know how tiring it is right? haiyo

What's more. I sleep alot. and with that little 3 hours plus sleep, wasn't going cover up the 15 hours sleep I have to have.

Anyway, back to Affirmation.

I have no idea why was I not very-included in the talks that my platoon mates shared. perhaps i know why. So, the 5 of them sat together and I was at the end of the line. On my right was A irritating CO from outram sec. I find him crude. Very crude in fact. He complains and complains and start his sentences with very nice hokkien words. It's not vulgarites. But it doesn't sound quite right to be coming out from a teacher. Especially to students. I guess. That's my point of view. OH, he talks very LOUD.

Whenever I bend forward from my chair, I'll see the 5 of them, with my CO, talking happily. And you know how it feels to be left out.

No, I don't want attention. I just want to blend in. Like part of everyone.

It all started in the bus. The NCO's sat behind, and I was in the middle. Then, foreign languages kept playing in my ears. From left and right. So, I put on my Mp3 and decided not to talk.

Yaya. you might say I could have just asked them to speak in English. But, I don't feel quite well saying that.

THEN, My dear platoon mate shoved me aside. "Eh, You sit there can?" she points to the window seat.

Do you know how does it feels like? I don't want to go through this at all. It all happened before. But I just had to type it out because there's no one to talk to.

Im typing this out. I know Feeza will probably see all these. I don't care. It fucking hurts.

I also hate the fact when my CO actually introduced me to DC as "the only chinese girl in Part D"

I love the NCO's ALOT. yes. ALOT. But sometimes.. There's just no connection. It's like you people are from Earth. and Im from Moon. something like that.

So. please part d's. CONTINUE to talk in suria channel. Yes. How were you all feeling When the Campus Superstars sang Chinese songs that you all didn't understand at all? Bored? Pissed off?
Grumbling "why are they singing chinese songs when there are malays and indians here?"

Imagine how I felt. Whenever Im with you all.

In fact, I would say. Imagining isn't enough AT ALL.